Me as a person, I don’t have empathy, very emotionless to the point that when I do feel emotions it’s like a new experience. Being surrounded by people constantly meant I had to keep up with everything. I honestly didn’t care if your dog died, it was always get a new one. It was inhuman but that’s how I am.

Having friends means that I have to keep up, constantly watching what I say because I don’t want it to end in like five seconds. The duty of always trying to watch what I say towards my friends sometime weighs heavy on me. There are things I can and I can’t do I know the difference at this point. But sometimes I would like to just blurt out: go fuck yourselves you homeless rats. I obviously don’t mean it but that’s how I am.