We were doing an exercise to learn about a practice of performance called "neutral mask." I was laying on the floor with my eyes closed along with everyone else, imagining what the instructor was telling me. We had to "wake up", and take in the imaginary space around us. She told us to stand and do a bunch of stuff, but I didn't do the majority of it. In that exercise I felt way more comfortable sitting and "playing in the dirt" instead of walking around. So I did that. Eventually we had to throw a rock in the pond, which I did do, but long after everybody else did. I just felt way more at home on the ground and without the pressure of needing to follow someone else's instructions. In the exercise I was tapping my finger on the ground and listening to the tone change as I pressed my ears harder against the floor, all while people were walking and moving I could hear their footsteps changing, too. I didn't feel ready to move, not until the instructor gave us something interesting to do, which was pick up a rock. I "licked it" and pictured a rock from my childhood and that was probably part of the reason why I held onto it longer than everyone else. Maybe. I could have also just been tired and a resistant prick but I'm not sure how I feel.