I get a text, my ex wants to get back together. A girl who is quite literally the worst for me. At this time I had just started dating another girl in my class, she's cute, but I barely know her, but the way she makes me feel is something else. I sit on the bus and ponder my decision. My ex goes to a different school, I know she's a crappy person but, she's familiar. I'm nervous, I've never been good with girls and I am extremely lacking in confidence. 

My ex would constantly berate me, make me feel less than,  and would breakup with me on a whim. She had once gotten her friend to hit on me to see if I would cheat, and I wish I had played along so I could've been over it, but there was something between us, I hoped.

I texted the girl I had just started dating, "I think we'd be better of as friends." 

I regretted it the moment I hit send.

I watched the trees fly by as I mourned what could've been.