It's around 4am, i've gotten around 5-6 hours of sleep. I hop online with one of my friends. While sharing my mental state i realize something. I am not who i want to be. I have devolved into someone who aims to be better but takes no actions for it. I am someone who want to be better, but doesn't become that. So i hatch a plan. I've done this before, where i take on a persona. Its been a long time since i've done it but i can feel the energy kicking in. My new persona is strong, willing, capable. If there's ever been a fake it till you make it time, its now. I can feel how excited im getting at the prospect of being someone i actually like, of being someone i actually want to be. This goes on for a few hours. Making plans, carving out exactly how i want to act and react to things. I want to be reborn.