It had been two months since I got rejected by someone I still have feelings to 'til this day, so back then the feelings were even more present. We're coming back to school, it's the first few days and I'm meeting my new classmates, one of them I get to know is this beautiful and kind girl, who kind of seems into me. By the end of the second week of school we decide to go to a park and hang out. We confess to each other, she says that she'd like to go slow, I do too, I'm still hurt from the rejection earlier. We decide to go to the mall across the street, she then grabs my hand as we're walking down. That spooked me, we might have feelings for each other, but it was too early for that, I feel, we had met only 2 weeks ago. For the following days we get to know eachother, until the day where she messages me, talking about how she's being kicked out by her mom, I immediately offer her my place. Was a good idea at first, but it felt like so much so fast, it really wasn't going natural. Eventually I break down due to feeling very pressured. I was still seeing the first girl walk around the school halls everyday, it all just made my mind worse. One day I tell her to come to this empty classroom to talk, I tell her I can't do it anymore, so we split up. A few weeks later my best friend of five years, the guy I ranted to about my feelings and mental health, the guy I trusted with the knowledge of my self harm issues, who I trusted like a brother, starts dating her. I felt very angry at first, it got awkward, I got worse and worse, a whole lot worse. But then I let go.