I am female and always knew that I was attracted to girls. I always had wished I was born a guy. When I grew up there was less tolerance of anything different, including homosexuality. I suffered silently with my situation. One night my friends and I somehow got are hands on beer and went to a local park and got drunk. We met 2 unknown guys, about 16, that were also at the park getting drunk.  As the night went on one of my female friends started making out with one of the guys.  A little while later, I was making out with the other guy. I don’t really know why I did this, since I wasn’t attracted to men. I think I either was trying to be like everyone else and hoped maybe I would like it and have an easier like being heterosexual. I felt absolutely nothing when I was kissing him. No excitement at all. Yuck.  That was definitely against my true nature.