Just another day at the most god-awful job I ever had the displeasure of slaving away at. Life had been exhausting lately to say the least. My mental health was practically non-existent at this point and I just wanted out. I always had your number saved for this very occasion, right under "just in case."

I hit call and it rings, it rings and rings and rings without end but I know that if I hang up now that I'll do something dumb that I will end up not being able to regret. The hotline tells me there is a wait, that's fine. What's another few minutes after a day like that day. After staring at the phone for almost an hour someone finally picks up. "Hello?" they say, I sit there for a few seconds while I ponder.. Where do I even start? Just as the words are about to flow from my heavy heart to my mouth I hear you hang up.. I guess I took one second too long. I sit there in my car, defeated. Of course I would mess this up. 

At this point, the sun is in the air and I decided that I won't do it today, it's too early for all of this. I drive off, knowing that it could have been my last few minutes here if I decided differently.