im not sure if this really counts as a betrayal, but looking back it kind of felt like one? i had recently come out as a trans guy to my closest friend at the time; he was the only one i'd ever really talk to out of school n we'd hang out for hours on end by calling each other whenever we could. our primary activity was playing mc bedwars on the hive, a now defunct server that shutdown probably like. 2 years ago at this point? but this was well before it shut down. anyways we're, talking, probably about some drama w/ middle school relationships that's going on and i start lamenting about MY bad luck with dating, which, consisted of one girl who i broke up with upon realizing i really couldnt do the whole. romantic feeling thing? and i say something along the lines of how its a good thing since i dont think im very loveable anyways. and my friend, who has told me before that he would NEVER, consider dating a guy because he isn't emotionally attracted to them, says he likes me. i remember him saying some shit like, "you know i like you, right?" and i had always had a sort of, hunch? but never wanted it to be me. because i couldnt reciprocate. and i didnt LIKE him like that, he was just my friend, i dont know how many times id called him my brother cause i saw him like one. and this hurt even more because it meant he didnt see me as a guy because if he did, he probably wouldve lost feelings for me yk? and we're in the middle of a fucking GAME while all this is going on. we're quiet for a long time after that.