im sitting on the floor of my bedroom eating thin mints and my best friend at the time calls me. she doesn’t preface anything, doesn’t say hi, doesn’t ask me anything, and just starts talking. she began talking to a boy a few months ago and it’s been a topic of discussion for a while, but i’m still shocked by the way she started this conversation. the situation with him she’s talking about isn’t even crazy or important. i feel as if she doesn’t care about what’s happening in my life anymore. i stop paying  attention to her because i realize that this is what our friendship is now. i’m just someone she talks at. i feel small and used.