i’m sitting in a chair in my room. it’s probably about seven at night. both of my grandparents are home so i don’t have to watch our new dog. i’m looping a moment in my head from earlier where our teething puppy wont stop chewing on my foot and i got angry and i kicked her and she whimpered. it reminds me of everyone i’ve ever wronged and every plant i’ve killed and every animal i’ve ever hurt. i begin to feel like i harm everything around me. part of me realizes this is spiraled thinking and that this is very far from the truth, but i allow myself to continue feeling guilty about everything.